When I first created the blog I was unsure what it was for, what I would write, and frankly who would read it. Maybe I would just write and post out into the world for nothing else then for my own therapeutic means. A way for me to work through and process this idea of mindful and authentic parenting as well as being a creative soul and making a living at both. Both are huge endeavors and need lots of thinking and writing through.
The pregnancies and births of my children (Samuel; 2 and Liliana; 7 weeks) have been foundations of great and moveable change for me. Sam launched me into parenthood blind and scared. He rocked everything that I thought I understood and believed in. All my relationships and most importantly my relationship with myself and the world around me. Lily has taken me a whole step forward into something else completely.
The new forward step began with receiving Mothering as a christmas present. The first issue that I received was about crafty mama's. Well it was as though the cover screamed my name. inside I find women who are doing what I am so desperately trying to do. Live as artists and mothers all at the same time and finding a beautiful balance. I am taken by Amanda Blake Soule and purchase her book The Creative Family and devour it. I begin reading her blog each and everyday inspired more and more by what she says and lives each day. I realize the there is this longing inside to move forward in me as a mother, woman, and artist. I feel as though these things are not in balance, thus not creating balance in my life as well as the life of the family.
Thus I am currently here; wading around in my thoughts and information. Trying to create balance and be the creative mother, woman and soul that I feel so strongly to be. Therefore I am devoting this year to finding it, striving for it and manifesting it. While I also enjoy it, treasure it, and embrace it.
Whatever IT may be
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