Thursday, May 28, 2009
The arrival of Liliana was nothing like I expected. Everyone told tales of the second baby that would be low key and calm because they would have to be as they were the second. Lily was not this baby! I have spent that last 9 weeks with a little girl that cried all day for the first 6 weeks. The only way to calm here was to swaddle or but her in the sling and bounce her on an exercise ball. So day after day I bounced. We bounced in every room in the house depending on which room people were in. We even take the ball with us to other peoples houses, we were not being without the ball as it was and is the only thing that works.
At 6 weeks I reached my emotional limit and Piper my amazing homeopath stepped in and we started working through things. With the right remedy Lily started to laugh and smile during diaper changes and she started to open her eyes. She even would sit with you and not cry for a few minutes. This times grew greater and longer inbetween the crying. We started to see hope of some sorts at the end of the long days of crying.
I of course could not see what was wrong. She had an amazing birth with loving, strong and spiritual woman in the room and her and I did it together. We loved and cared for her and have kept here inside this little home until she was ready. Why was she so stressed and anxious? They all tell me it is just life and coming into the world.
So here we are at 9 weeks and she is an amazing little girl. She laughs and "talks" to us and is even on the goal of finding her thumb in the next few days, she is almost there and it is so amazing to watch. I see the light at the end and know that soon I willbe seeing her crawling, walking and playing with her big brother and the crying will be a time in which her and I got to spend with one another. Growing and bonding and creating our connection.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Loving: This new little girl in my life
Welcoming: The warmth of the sun on my bed in the morning
Appreciating: The patients that comes with having a newborn
Noticing: My new body
Wishing: For Creative Inspiration
Eating: Granola; at all hours of the day and night
Counting: The days until Fairy Lake Artisan Festival
Listening: To a toddler tell me about his day
Thinking: I love the people who have touched me life today.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Of course as I went to post the wireless kicked me off and the post was lost.
I have been told that I should choose one thing in each day that was the most important to me and have that get done and be happy with that.
Today I am happy to have both children finally asleep after an evening to crying and the laundry is folded.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
As a result of visiting and car riding Lily was alittle out of sorts this evening. Too much stimulation and therefore the result is a lot of processing on her part and this means crying. I know in my mind that the only way for her to communicate is to cry. Even the simple things of that sound scared me, comes out in cries. So we have spent much of the day bouncing.
Sam is moving forward as he does with change and decided that with the birth of his sister that growth is what he needs. Ring in the Potty Dance!! We have been wearing "Big Boy" underpants for almost a week with only 2 times of not making it. Theses are good odds.
Lets keep it up
Saturday, May 16, 2009
With a moment of calm last night ( all the kids asleep, including Paul ) I took a few moments to make some pieces in the studio. Me and my tea listening to the hum of the wheel was super relaxing and what I needed after a long week. One with the chicken poxs, another hitting the 7 week marker and crying alot, and another with a fever and general unwell. Funny how the adult with the fever is the most difficult to look after!
Being in the studio and knowing that there are pieces waiting for me down there this morning makes me feel as though I have a small piece of me the artist. With the routine that has arisen after Lily, the artist doesn't get much time to herself these days, but I am going to try and take them when I can. Even if that means I am sitting at the wheel with my tea in the quiet darkness of the night after all has been laid to rest.